There's a Tortoise in My Hair: A Journey to Spirit, A Novel Kindle Edition

Cameron Simmons is fighting a losing battle against his own life.Divorce. Career failures. A "tortoise" of self-doubt that's lived in his head since childhood. At sixty, this former pharmacist turned eyeglass salesman can barely get out of bed, let alone find meaning in his crumbling world.But Cameron has something they can't kill: a stubborn refusal to give up and an inexplicable connection to something greater than himself.Then mysterious numbers—111 and 444—begin appearing everywhere. A voice whispers "Trust" in the darkness. Strange coincidences stack upon each other until Cameron can no longer deny the impossible: someone is watching over him.Until his spiritual awakening collides with crushing depression and thoughts of ending it all. Faith becomes doubt. Hope becomes despair.His journey takes him from the depths of suicidal ideation to the heights of spiritual revelation, from a failed marriage to profound love, from bitter isolation to mentoring the next generation at Rutgers University.Sometimes the most beautiful transformations come from the darkest places.A story that will make you question everything you believe about coincidence, purpose, and the invisible forces that shape our lives. You'll never look at repeating numbers the same way again.Kirkus Star Award-winning author Calvin Barry Schwartz writes in the general fiction and spirituality genres. Readers who love Philip Roth, Kurt Vonnegut, and John Irving will enjoy this deeply personal and darkly humorous book that transforms a Newark ex-pharmacist's midlife crisis into a profound meditation on meaning, mortality, and the mysterious forces that guide us through our darkest moments. Read more